Hi, my name is Kate, a 15-year-old girl. When I was 13 years old I developed an eating
disorder called anorexia, this is a restrictive eating disorder. It was the worst time of my life as my mind was bombarded with all of these horrible thoughts about myself, and at some points thinking it would have been better to be skinny and have ”the perfect body” than it would to be alive. This was the worst time in my life as I would not talk to anyone, my friends and my parents especially because of how mad I was at them. I was angry because they wanted me to be better which meant eating food. I do not wish this loneliness and sadness on anyone. I strived to have the “perfect body” in my mind for months and months. I had to go to an eating disorder therapist and nutritionist neither of them I liked. After many tears, panic attacks, and my mind and body telling me I needed to stop torturing it, I knew this needed to change, and could no longer live like this. This is when the thoughts in my head started to shift and I decided that food was no longer going to control my life. I began listening to the hunger cues of my body and it was the best decision I could have ever made. I was 14 when I fully came into recovery and started to live after over a year of food and my body and brain not allowing me to live. Once I got my life back, I got my personality back as well as my friends back. My body started to recover from the torture it had received. Recovery meant I got to not let food control my life and let all of the excitements and friends and trips we had planned be what was on my mind rather than food and what I looked like. I began to become confident with who I was as a person physically and mentally. I cannot explain the freedom that rushed into my life as soon as I flipped the switch. No one can flip that switch in your mind. You have to be the one to do it and be the one to choose recovery and living. I began to get a community of people in my life that had been through the same thing as me and I began to know that I was not alone in what I went through, and I strive to let others know that they are not alone in whatever they are going through. I am now 15 years old and happier than ever that I chose to choose my life and not let my eating disorder take control.
A bit about Kate:
"I am Kate, a 15 year old girl living in Florida who loves her dog, the beach, and spending time with my family and friends! I am a coxswain on my rowing team and a mid-field soccer player!
Connect with Kate on Instagram @katemorrow21
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